:: Saturday, August 07, 2004 ::

i teach - i love - i love - i love - i love- i learn
i surrender - the old conversations disappearing
my heart expands until it nearly expolodes
each time i think i can't take anymore - i take more
& more & more & more
knowing that there is something on the other side
that i crave
stepping through spaces that i never knew i could step through
walls become open doorways
& when the words fall out
& fear comes & the loneliness sets in & i want to hide & just cry
i seek out the feelings & just let myself feel them
breathe in - breathe out -
life shifts again in a conversation
always in a conversation
knowing is an illusion - everything is only temporary
created by whims & moods - needs fulfilled
leaving impact
& it is OK - coz i knew -
& i stepped through the door each time anyhow
coz no other choice seemed real
& i am determined to be real

i understand so much & let go of what i don't

i want to talk about it
so i come out here & put it out into the world
& tell myself not to be careful
this is my space -

i celebrate truth being spoken
taking what i get
freedom & intimacy
at any cost


:: Kym 3:31 AM [+] ::
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